Liping Feng, Ph.D., Founder and Director.
The year when I completed my Ph.D., things seemed to fall apart. A relationship ended, my beloved grandfather passed away, and on top of it, there were very few job openings in my field (Comparative Literature, Cultural studies). Why didn’t I see all this coming, and why did I spend all these years sacrificing all the things I wanted to do just to get a useless Ph.D.?
Life sometimes brings you questions that take many years to answer. At the same time things do work out like a miracle, usually at the last moment when you feel the sunshine is gone forever. Seven days before the school year started, I got a job offer from a prestigious university. So, I packed up all my books and belongings, flew from Canada to the US with one luggage, found a nice apartment on Friday and started teaching the following Tuesday.
Finally I seemed to have landed on a bit of stable ground, but the storm was not over. My health rapidly deteriorated: I had little energy, put on weight, and woke up every morning like I had not slept at all. A stomach condition I had as a child also came back, causing lots of digestive problems. Worst of all was my heartache, the dark cloud hanging over me concerning my relationship, my career and my life purpose.
Initially I considered myself way to healthy to require healing. Only in retrospect can I see the fragmented life I had lived: my soul, body, mind, heart, and intellect, each had its own separate direction. Each part of me wanted to go to a different place. No wonder I felt torn apart. Where was my center? What did I want to do in life? What did I want to give my energy to? I felt tired and unproductive all the time.
Etymologically, the word healing means becoming whole. After more than twenty years of intensive spiritual work I have a sense of wholeness now. But back then I had no clue. Instead I kept blaming myself everyday for doing things I enjoyed and never having enough motivation to work on the “real important stuff”. I could easily spend a whole day doing “weird” things like yoga, meditation, reading spiritual books, etc. while my “real” work (the articles and books to be read and written) sat there in piles on the shelves. I couldn’t figure out how come I could never find the “time” to concentrate on the “really important stuff.”
That was the only path of life I could see for myself at the time: work hard, real hard, and one day when you are breaking down, and couldn’t take it anymore, success would come spilling its treasures your way. Deep inside me a small voice kept questioning: what’s the point of doing it when there is no fun?
One thing led to another, somehow I got into deep meditation, first at a yoga center, then with a Zen master. After reading Paramahansa Yogananda’s Autobiography of a Yogi, I started doing Kriya, a form of intensive meditation. Then I also trained with Dr. Joseph M. Levry at Rootlight for many self-healing practices. It was a long journey, full of trials and errors, but I could feel massive shifts taking place inside and all around me. Every day I woke up to face a new world, a new reality. Life finally started to flow.
My health has improved radically; I understand what my own weaknesses are and how to prevent them. I now have more energy than when I was in college. My sleep has deepened, and in the morning I often wake up from “baby sleep” feeling that life has been renewed. A relationship also emerged first in my dream and then in reality. It was/is another miracle for me, since I had almost given up, and never even bothered with dating.
Meanwhile my mind became increasingly focused on a few topics: self-healing, women’s (leadership) issues, relationship and family issues, and so on. I started to receive clear guidance from my prayers regarding life purpose. After a series of in-depth training, the little voice in me lead me to work other women who are facing similar challenges. So I started my own business.
My story is still evolving, and I have no definitive solution to life’s myriad problems. However, having gone through all the trials and errors of my own healing, I do see clear patterns in myself and others. With the information overload, the constant changes in technology, global economy, emerging social landscapes, etc., we all need to find new ways and new tools to both survive and thrive in life. This is especially the case with women who are experiencing changes that our mothers and grandmothers never had in their youth.
It is my heartfelt desire to share the tools I’ve gathered as well as my own experiences, so that others can walk through their storm with grace, knowing that it is a process of becoming whole. Indeed, the soul has all the energy that’s required to grow, blossom and bear fruit.
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